Week 5

25th Aug 2006
23:42hrs AEST


4.71 weeks, 32 days, 768hrs, 46080 minutes, 2764800 sec have passed.. assuming that 1/3 of our lives are spent sleeping.. that would have meant that I would have spent ~11 days (10.99) days asleep.. and 21 days.. awake..

What have I achieved in these 21 days.. the spectre of procastination and lethargy seem to materialize always in the periphery.. 21 days- how can I account to all of my days? It can be quite trying sometimes.. I cannot say that each second of these 21 days worth was spent in the most economical.. yet I guess.. even the most effecient of things- the human body.. is only 40% fuel effecient ( cf. car engines- 15% effeciency.. albeit the effeciency of nuclear reactors are about 60% effeciency.. )

Moments of achievement interspersed with occasional tinges of anguish and anxiety.. the later two almost as if an amorphous continum of uniform consistency.. Moments where I become myopic and simply fixated on my goals.. and yet moments when I just hope sweet serendipity would favour a person such as me. Moments where life seems to be a Kasparov chess game- the many steps ahead planned to produce a favourable result- and yet moments when life should be just taken as it is- a journey and not a race.

Somehow, even as ridiculous as it may sound- sleep deprives me of rest. Some subconscious thought must be manifesting itself in my dreams as I lay to rest... I dream of a constant image.. I've had this dream repeated to me but in slightly different manners.

In my dreams I am walking by a quiet seaside park that has a tarmac path running thru.. the beach has no sand but hard rocks- white ones. and the tarmac path meets an intersection which turns into a concrete pathway at an intersection- which leads to a bridge- the most prominent of my dreams.. the bridge looks a manner similar to the San Francisco golden gate bridge- yet it is all concrete white.. it seems to lead somewhere.. over the seas.. the weather is grey but not stormy.. the bridge is broken in the middle.. and the slight half of the other side of the bridge is obscured by the fog.. the opposite bank cannot be seen..

I havent a clue why i keep seeing this place in my dreams..

Anyway its bedtime and i shall take my leave..

iris

"..And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.."

Iris by Goo Goo Dolls, main chorus

If

If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master;
If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings -- nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run --
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son!

By Rudyard Kipling

Desiderata

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.


Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.


Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.


Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.


You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.


Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.


With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.


By Max Ehrmann

Quotes

I just tot these quotes were very inspiring to me

Dont run thru life so fast that you forget where you've been,
but also where you're going:

Life's not a race, but a journey to be savoured

every step of the way.

Dont let your life slip thru your fingers

by living in the past or the future:

By living your life one day at a time,

you live all the days of your life

Dont shut love out of your life by saying that its impossible to find:

The quickest way to recieve love is to give love;

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly;

And the best way to keep love, is to give it wings

Dont dismiss your dreams; to be without dreams is to be without hope:

To be without hope is to be without purpose

"Salary is directly proportional to the length of Scientific words used" - Dr Robert Di Nicolantonio, my Physiology Lecturer

Why must science words be so long? mebbe scientists get a hit out of saying really long words.. eg

Decussation- it just means CROSS OVER
Haemorrahge- it just means BLEEDING
Contralateral- it just means OPPOSITE
Ipsilateral- it just means SAME SIDE
Olfactory Senses- it just means SMELL

Sometimes i ask myself why i chose science..