Thoughts

"Success is never final, Failure is never fatal, but its the courage to carry on that counts" - another one of those really incredibly CHEESY lines from great people found in Call Of Duty 2.. Question is.. have I ever succeeded? and is failure really non lethal? Another great general also said that "There were only 2 outcomes in battle- Victory or Death" another incredibly cheesy thing to say... which makes me wonder why great men say all these kinda stuff..

It does make me wonder whether failure being never fatal was a merciful thing in the first place.. because falling from your own graces sometimes feels like you're shot thru the heart.. most of the times these failures, and thankfully so, are never bear physical.. but emotional scars.. Tho if failure were fatal, I'd think we'd have very short lives.. yet to let wounds heal and stand up to get shot again.. it would really require nerve and courage.. sometimes I wish i had that..

There are times when I've asked myself what is it i fear most and what is it that i desire most... really delving into the framework of my mind... Fear itself, is like an assassin and a saboteur.. killing hopes and the destroyer of dreams.. betraying us of our true potential... yet no man lives in the absence of fear.. only in the conquering of fear does a man triumph to live his dreams... Fear I guess reminds us once again that we're only human... In desiring we throw ourselves at our goals, pursue them with fervour.. and sometimes the fire of our passion becomes an obsession and caught in these flames we burn to destruction with it... only in pursuing it with hope and meekness and with courage and determination will we find satisfaction- not that we would definitely achieve our goal.. but the journey would be worthwhile..

"Jealousy is the one eye monster that doth feeds upon its own flesh"- an excerpt taken from the book Othello.. In this life I couldnt but find this true.. jealousy has many times destroyed and fed on my own flesh (not literally.. else i'd never have to go for TAF club) its an insane emotion whereby your lack of something u so desire causes damage to yourself.. and also fuels your fervour to pursue your lack...jealousy- a manifestation of an emotional insecurity? perhaps so.. It'd be vain to hope that I will never experience jealousy... in this world where the only way is forward, the only quality to exist is BETTER.. its hard to find contentment.. I only pray that somehow I do.. and stop this inner burning and destruction of me inside.."

Pardon this entry if its really emo.. in all seriousness.. its just a couple of my thoughts..