June 17th

Somehow the holidays dont seem so appealing anymore.. I mean I'm thankful that I'm goin back... but yet.. it doesnt seem like a holiday.. maybe its the singaporean buffet syndrome.. u heap everything onto ur plate.. only to realise that its too much ur stuffing on ur plate.. by that time.. you forsee that u'll get indigestion.. working from monday to friday 9-5 in a lab initially sounded like great fun.. i mean well cross talk between HER-2/neu cell to cell signalling and mitochondria sounds like some big thing.. I guess well.. you're joining the force of scientists working together to combat cancer.. and rid human kind of its worst disease.. yet.. what I want is a break from all the hustle and bustle.. I want a holiday break.. My holiday is almost non existant.. I know I shouldnt complain.. Its just the fact that.. what I really looked forward to is a restful period.. where I can just feel laid back.. to recharge my energy before I get back into the academic fight.. but yet.. this holiday eludes me.. I dont know what to feel.. 1- I only get weekends off 2-I have to work from 9-5 everyday.. what else is there to do after 5? when u gotta go back sleep early and get ready for work the next day? 3- I have to fly back on the 20th which is a thursday.. that means I'll also be working that day.. and I dont get the last weekend off.. I dont know what to do really.. somehow I'm tired of all this academic ambition..

Whats this all mean at the end of the day? you're some kind of biochem hero? I'm tired.. all I want is a good holiday... for all the hard work and effort u put in for an exam, you can be rewarded by.. more hardwork.. and I mean.. WHAT EVEN MAKES ME THINK AFTER 9-5 THATS THE END OF IT? I STILL HAVE TO WRITE A REPORT TO COVER WHAT WENT ON THAT DAY.. so much for a holiday.. this had better be worth it.. cos I am really starting to feel resentful of it.. I dont know.. it seems like bad news after bad news.. I've been really looking forward to this holiday this whole semester.. It has to turn out this way.. GOD HELP ME PLEASE..