Saturday

Spent my day with autoimmune diseases.. anything from RA to SLE to SS to anything else that you could spell acronymize and were just too lazy to say out loud.. yet the thought still lingered at the back of my mind.. its a strange feeling of weakness.. a sense of emptiness.. somehow I wish someone could talk to me right now.. yet.. I wouldn't know what to say or how to describe my predicament.. if someone so serendipitously did come my way.. nevertheless I hope someone would..

Its almost as if I'm putting out a distress signal but covering it with a cloth.. making it as subtle as possible... perhaps ashamed to feel weak.. embarased.. but nevertheless.. I can't run from what I feel or think..

I just guess I'm good at covering up my emotions.. by smiling and being a bloody joker.. yet somehow I wish people really knew what I thought or felt inside.. oh well..

At least one thing I can say I accomplished today was eating broccoli with mushroom and beef stir fry style.. with a dash of chinese cooking wine.. well done kenchin.. at least u did something well this week..